Losing Weight, Gaining Strength

My journey to a healthier me via exercising, and eating less.

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Confessions of a Lost Mama

I’m here to admit I got terribly lost. I lost my passion, my motivation, my excitement to continue on the journey.

I’m sure you have heard the term “to live in the moment.” Its a great concept and sound reminder to appreciate and treasure the life, family, and blessings you have right NOW. But, for me, it knocked me off the tracks. I stopped envisioning my goal and I started to really think one day at time. I began to let old habits fall in to place while ignoring the future consequences.

I let the daily stresses take over me. I had lots ( lots and lots ) of late night snacks. I stopped taking advantage of the daily opportunities to be active.

I used to look at those people in the media who lost a ton of weight only to gain it back a short time later and think, how could they do that! How could they get so far only to let themselves go again! I know the answer to that now, I can clearly see how it happens.

I went to bed last night thinking “what has become of me?” When did my flame burn out? When people say I inspired them I feel ashamed at the lack of progress I have made. I have been waking up most mornings hating what I’ve done the day before. I feel angry and disappointed in myself.

I’m here to release that negativity and turn it in to determination. I’m here to remember how far I HAVE come. How much I was able to accomplish. To bring my future and my goals to the forefront of my mind again and let them motivate my daily actions.

I refuse to fall back into a self-pitied, depressed, and un-happy person. I REFUSE.

The difference between the me now and the me that began this journey then, is I KNOW I am capable. How powerful, huh? I don’t need to wonder if I can do this, I know for a fact that I can. And I WILL.

I hope you haven’t given up on me…because I will never give up on myself!

Fast Lane

My progress this week was on the fast track with a total loss of 4 pounds! It was so exciting to see 165! I literally feel SO LIGHT! Not only do I feel light, but I feel healthy, and energized, and happy.

As of today I have lost 42 pounds. And, I’m proud to say these pounds were lost without any fad diets, or crazy exercise regimens. Just a lot of healthy changes that are leading me to a wonderful place in my mind and body! I’m excited about whats still ahead!


I’ve been making breakfast a priority lately. I just haven’t been hungry in the mornings and there are other things distracting me from eating (my 10.5 month old.) But, I’m making time for it, and my motto is ‘better late then never!’

My go to’s recently have been:

  • homemade green shake (yogurt, almond milk, spinach, berries, and honey) and toast -I use Alvarado St. Bakery Essential Flax Seed Bread – at 50 calories a slice and zero flour its my #1 bread!
  • plain FAGE greek yogurt with berries and molasses
  • scrambled eggs (1 whole egg and 2 whites), spinach, and toast, oh and hot sauce!

These meals fill my tummy and satisfy my taste buds. So, what is your go to meal in the morning?

Weighing In

Oh man, I can’t help myself! I cannot stop from weighing in. I rely on the results to keep myself accountable. I can’t live without that weekly update. It keep me honest with how I ate during the week, and how hard I worked.

That being said, I had an AMAZING week,  and the scale showed it. I worked out 4   times, and I had my eating under control. I felt great about stepping on the scale.

So, ladies and gentlemen, I present to you my 171 pound self. I have lost 36 pounds in about 4 months.

You heard right. THIRTY SIX POUNDS!

I’m half way to my goal!

Thank you everyone for the love an support!



Do you watch The Biggest Loser? I do. Do I love it? No, but I watch it anyways. That show has a way of pulling the ugly cry out of me. They sure love to edit the sob stories to their full potential don’ t they?

As I am on my own weight loss adventure I am wondering how many contestants gain the weight back. Of course, you only hear from people that keep it off and truly change, but what are all the other stories? I mean, duh, its easy when one is on TBL ranch to lose weight. Its their only focus, their only responsibility. They have these kick-butt trainers working them out non stop. What happens when you go home, and life kicks in? I know some contestants “get it”, and when they go home they continue with the life-skills they learned. But, its hard not to believe that some people live in this fantasy weight loss world, then get home to be shocked by reality and fall back into old habits.

There is no easy fix. There is no magic diet. Bob Harper isn’t in my face telling me to work harder, go further. That would be nice right?  I can be my own cheerleader though. I can tell myself to take one more step, eat one less bite, run one more minute. Push myself to my my so called limits, then push a little harder. Sure, I can’t work out all day, but when I do workout I can workout to my full potential. If I can be the best me, success is inevitable.

I do appreciate the message of The Biggest Loser. We need to get healthy as a society. We need to stop letting our emotions, our pasts, and other people control us and keep us from being all that we can be. We need to make the choice to change.

Like I said, I don’t LOVE the show. Some of the products they advertise are the opposite of healthy (Yoplait Light? yuck). And, I hope people watching can see the difference in being on the show and real life. But, its sure neat to see the contestants transformations and relate to their new hope in life as healthier people inside and out. I just hope it sticks!

Fast Forward

I’m in a much better mental state today. I weighed in Monday with a one pound loss which brings me to 22 pounds gone! It’s the lightest I’ve been in about 5 years! It feels good and according to my friends and family I look good too.

My eating has been on track. I’m so proud of myself for not giving in to the major cravings and temptations that I dealt with this past week. I have truly changed my ways!

I have changed up my 30 day shred plan a tad. After doing level two for the fourth time yesterday I was already dreading today’s workout. I realized my issues weren’t with the act of working out but with the type of exercise I was attempting. There are several moves in level two that I just could not do. I was feeling defeated. I decided to skip to level 3 today. This was a great decision! Don’t get me wrong, I still got my butt kicked, but I was able to complete each circuit in full. So, my plan is to alternate level 3 and level 1 for the remainder of my 30 days.

Uh oh! I’m not perfect.

I cheated.

I didn’t do my exercise routine this Sunday. No excuses, I know, I know. But, in my defense, it was a long and challenging day.

I had to wake up at 4:45 am to take my husband to the airport for a business trip. Once home, it was hard to fall back asleep. Once the kids were up it was busy till the end. What kept me busiest was my little seven-month old, who  is getting his 3rd pair of teeth in. I spent most of the day comforting him, and trying not to go insane. Because I didn’t get my workout in, in the morning, I was too exhausted emotionally and physically to do it in the evening.

So it is! Lesson learned. I must buy a coffee maker so I can survive these long days with a little help. And always, I repeat always fit in a workout in the morning. It never works when I wait for the evening to do it.

Today, I got up and did it! Not only did I do the video, but, I also trekked it to my sons school to pick him up. On the way there I actually jogged. It felt good. Two miles total, there and back.

Today was my weigh in day. And, I lost one more pound. Which brings the grand total to 21 lbs melted away, never to return!

Busy Life vs. Working Out

Already, this 30 Day Shred challenge is becoming difficult. Yesterday is one of my busiest days of the week. I have a lot going on Wednesdays, and a lot to accomplish. It would have been so very, very easy to skip a day. Who’s really watching right?

Wrong! I’m watching. Jillian Michaels is watching..Okay maybe not, but it feels like it when I’m doing the video.  She tells me she has “400 pound people doing jumping jacks “, so I shouldn’t  need any modifications! Okay, Jillian, but my calves are on fire and I feel like dying-give me a little slack!

I would be totally bummed, and ashamed if I didn’t follow through. Especially because the routine is a little over 20 minutes long. How hard is that to fit in? No excuses!

The eating is easy now. Making myself move in ways I am not used to is a little harder to stick with and be consistent in. But, its necessary for me, and for my success.

I’m feeling really good. Yesterday during the workout I was feeling fatigued pretty early.  But, today it seems like I got over that mid-week hump and was even able to push a little harder.  The progress is so encouraging!


There has been such a difference in the awareness I have for the way my body reacts when I eat a certain way.  Now that my body is accustom to eating fewer calories as well as healthier food, when I stray, I really feel a reaction.

Last night my husband and I celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary. We went to dinner at a local Japanese restaurant. Nothing I ate was terribly unhealthy, but, I had some beer, and white rice with my steak and veggies, and topped it off with a scoop of green tea ice cream. In the past, I could of downed all that easily! But by the end of the meal I was stuffed! The next morning I was bloated, and tired, and my stomach ached. I also slept horribly!

I learned my lesson. I am okay with celebrating every once in a while, but I would rather avoid the consequences I felt this morning. So, next time, I’ll stick to smaller portions, less starch, and a small glass of wine.

It makes me wonder if I was feeling bloated, tired, and unwell before, but because I was used to the abuse, I didn’t notice..


In other news-today was my first day of the 30 Day Shred challenge I have given myself. There was a lot of arguing going on in my head because of the way I was feeling, but I got over it. I took my measurements, stuck in the DVD and proceeded to work my booty off. (Hopefully literally.)


Shred it off.

One of my favorite things to do since I started this journey is to read weight loss success stories and other blogs like mine. I’ve come across a good amount of before and after photos of people that have started and completed the 30 Day Shred DVD program. The results are crazy! The weight loss isn’t huge, but the visual change and the inches lost are just astonishing.

I decided its my turn for a before and after. I will be starting 30 Day Shred this Monday October 10, 2011. I’m committing to the full 30 days. Ten days at level 1, ten days at level 2, and ten days at level 3. I like a challenge!

I’ll consider posting before and after pictures (no promises though!) But I will definitely post my measurements!

Anyone want to join me?

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